Searching for Apples in the Rain

        Still stuck in yesterday? Looming in the middle of the shadows sad, hurt, confused, lost for all of tomorrows can’t seem to find it and really doesn’t want to. Your favorite place is still present, but right back here inside is the treasure house inside your mind. In a picture frame full of memories, lost time, a shadow box. Where the light of truth of all those yesterdays is deeply seeded, rooted, embedded as fond memories that shine bright as the sun and always will be bright as yesterday was real; but in this world of today your hurt, pain, and sorrow is called the past even though you’re still dwelling in the cracks, corners, and crevices of yesterday’s laughs, smiles, frowns, thrills, hopes, fears, tears, happiness, and jeers of what was really real you thought for certain for a lifetime of years. Searching for apples in the rain, the pouring down rain seemed like heaven here on earth, wonder wall it was, this is still fresh inside my mind. What happened to life, as we know it, what happened to sacred promises, vows, whispers, and love? How could it go, slip away? What do you do? Where do you go, be just a no show? What about all the good times, promises, wishes, hopes, desires, and dreams; unfulfilled, unfinished love vanished, banished from sight – San Francisco Giants and fireworks displays. Thoughts, words, all communications just ceased and you’re bursting at the seams with questions drowning in your thoughts and words that continue to go unspoken, unanswered. Fair, what is fair? What is right? What is wrong? I guarantee you if you turn on the radio you’ll find it, your answers and all being sung in a country song. See misery, pain, gloom, doom, hurt, despair, sorrow, and agony love company. Likes attract likes they say.
        So when your world is turned upside down and you don’t know why or understand and you don’t know where to turn; flip the positive switch, turn the page forward – I know it’s hard to do. Believe me it’s not you, it’s not your fault if you’re not feeling hurt, pain, and anger; it all was fake for heaven’s sake for true love gets stuck and always remains, the subconscious mind never forgets. Time to live life without regrets for life is short! If someone doesn’t love or care enough about you, would plan to deceive and deliberately hurt you, leave you behind your back, cut you off and act as though you didn’t exist; don’t hurt yourself anymore with negative thinking – get un stuck and dwell on positive thoughts. See life is like a vacuum and will fill up all your empty spaces and voids. Positive thoughts open unexpected doors that bring unexpected rewards. You might not ever be able to get over, heal, or forget the past; the love scares may be too deep, too long, too personal, and remains visible like a tattoo of time. So saying, “get over it!”, “move on!”, “forget it and find a new one” is not fair or easy – not right. Your past doesn’t define you, it’s not where you start that counts it’s where you finish. Take on the world today with a positive mental attitude (PMA) and you’ll find what you’re looking for even though you can’t feel it, see it, or hear it; what you’re seeking is actually seeking you. Raise your hands in the air, be grateful for what you have and praise the light and know that you’re positive. That can’t be bad and you’ll be all right. Love comes back, love energy remains locked for eternity in sacred space and time for love can never leave. What once was had lives inside the storehouse of your mind.

Flip the positive switch today!

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